Yep, you read the title right. I am not joking or even trying to click bait you. One tiny ounce of me really believes that my birthday is “cursed.”
Now you are probably thinking, “Why does she believe her birthday is cursed?”
I would answer that question like this:
Over the years I have slowly noticed something bad happens either on my birthday, my birthday party, or the day before my birthday. Some of the things that have happened include a flood, sickness, cross country move, and the lock down of COVID-19.
I would be lying if I didn’t say learning all of this didn’t set me back at all in my thinking. If you have read my earlier blogs, you know I have struggled with some suicidal thoughts. When I realized this it started to depress me. It made me angry and confused. It made me envious of others who got to freely enjoy their birthdays. It made me wonder if my birthday was worth celebrating (Luke 12:6-7).
As I am writing this in the present, it still leaves me sad and confused. Not until recently have I decided God must have a reason. God must have a reason for me to be experiencing these things on my birthday. Perhaps today it’s to relate with someone out there who feels just like me. Perhaps even to give me a laugh later in my life (2 Corinthians 1:3-7).
So I ask you, what is something that is nagging at you that perhaps you need to look at in a different perspective? What is something you need to surrender to God and say, “Lord, I don’t know why this keeps happening, but I trust You know best. I leave this in Your hands because I know You are good and what You do is good (Psalm 34:8).”