Two weeks ago, I did a theatre intensive for my theatre group. It was filled with fun, excitement, nerves, and so much more! The most important thing it was filled with was the amount of spiritual warfare (1 John 4:18).
For this particular show I played a villain, the Big Bad Wolf. In this particular script, the wolf was written to be intense, aggressive, and angry which are three things I am not.
For this character I had to do a lot of soul searching for why the Wolf was seen as the Big Bad Wolf. I came up with a fitting backstory and sense of a wolf identity that worked for the wolf character. However, for those who have always wanted to know or who have always wanted to play a villain role, there is something that actors seem to forget to mention. When you play a villain, you are forced to live in darkness.
Darkness, the feeling of bitterness, hurt, rage, unforgiveness, loneliness, pride, and a zeal for revenge; so that those who hurt you may finally be brought to justice.
This, my friends, is exactly the opposite in what God has called us out of and how He has called us to live (Romans 13:11-14). We are called to be the salt and lights of the world; not to be friends with the world of darkness (Galatians 5:1, 13-26).
As I began to play this role, I quickly realized that darkness is heavy and not a joke. Satan lures us and feeds us lies every day, so that we may forget whose we are and what God has brought us out of (Colossians 1:9-14).
As I got deeper and deeper into playing the wolf, I quickly realized Satan was after me. He wanted to capture my mind and heart and force me to live in darkness again (Ephesians 5:8-14).
Something else that happens to us actors when we portray a certain character is that the audience associates that character with us as a person and begins to believe that is who we are in everyday life. I believe we as actors can often do this to ourselves as well.
So, when I began to play the wolf, I took on this villain as my “identity.” This is where I messed up. This is where Satan tried to get me. He tried to make me believe that the Wolf was who I was. I was the bad guy and the destroyer of life (1 Thessalonians 5:4-10).
Praise be to God that He stepped in and changed everything! Through a panic attack, food poisoning (at least I am pretty sure it was food poisoning), words of wisdom from my mom, and endless amounts of prayer and worship, I was reminded of who I was in Christ and that He alone gets the privilege of telling me who I am.
I tell you all of this because for any fellow actors, fellow believers, or any fellow people reading this:
- Be on guard! There is an enemy who is seeking to destroy you! He will use anything, good or bad, to lure you away from the truth and light. Satan will stop at nothing to get you as far away from freedom as you can get (1 Peter 5:8-9).
- You are not who the world or even who you say you are (see Freedom In Who You Are , The Truth Of Who You Are , & Chapter 6- The Battle Within More linked below)! The Creator gets the right to define His creation (Isaiah 64:8).
- The darkness will not overcome the light (John 1:4-5)!
Never forget that it is not you who beats the darkness, it is Jesus who has already defeated it for you, over two thousand years ago (John 19:30 & Mark 15:38).
Alyssa Rasor (and your Heavenly Father)