The quote took me off guard. It took me off guard because even though I had read the quote a thousand times, this time I actually grasped the meaning. I reread the quote again: His grace is enough.
Throughout my life and even up to this present moment, I struggle with perfectionism. At it’s best, it makes me aware of problems, a desire to have a pure heart and conscience before God, and in turn shows me that I can’t do life on my own. However, at it’s worst, it makes me live in fear of doing something wrong, pokes at my conscience with thoughts of guilt, failure, and condemnation, and ultimately makes me think I can/be God (Philippians 3:7-14, 20-21).
When I reread that quote earlier this week (a tee-shirt on Amazon if you can believe it), it was like the Bible verse finally made sense (though I am still working through the meaning). This is what I finally understood: God’s grace is enough. I don’t have to work tirelessly and endlessly every day to try and live up to God’s perfect standard. Jesus came to take the punishment and to be called a failure for me. I am set free and I am no longer condemned (Romans 8:1).
Check out these verses:
I love two things in these verses. (1) Paul says he delights in weaknesses. I don’t know about you, but I don’t delight in my weaknesses. In fact, I would say I try and hide from them. I want to believe I have it all together, when in reality I do not. (2) It is only in our weaknesses that Christ’s mighty power and strength can work through us. Besides, if we could be perfect and do life all on our own, why would we need a Savior and a Deliverer?
Now I want to ask are you living in a way where you can confidently say, “His grace is enough?” Or are there areas in your life where you keep trying to make up for something in the past? Do you let Satan keep your mind and heart in the trap of guilt instead of living in freedom (Galatians 5:1)?
I know I for one do not always live like this. In fact, I struggle with it every day. I know you may feel tired of the battle, and I know as a perfectionist you may not feel like fixing anything else, but as a perfectionist, let me tell you, if you only fix one thing for the rest of your life, this is what it needs to be! Don’t perfect another thing, until you have let God perfect this principle in you (Psalm 49:7-11).
Alyssa Rasor (and your Heavenly Father)